Post by DAMON ADAM DAMARA on Jun 30, 2010 23:38:47 GMT -5
Damon had said to her and scooted in a little closer.
Damon did hope things would work out for Evie in the best way possible if they could be worked out at all. She lost her father and there would be no getting over that for a while. Evie and her father were close. It made him wonder to himself what that was like. He and his father were never on good terms, and her father actually made his mother happy. It would have been odd if they got married and he would be her step brother. How odd would that be? It was a nice notion though. It really as a shame what happened to the man. Damon was worried that the bad things too were between her and Riley… They were like that it couple.. The ones you would always look at and think.. Aww they are so sweet and are fated to be together and would be and have loads of kids and a big family. He remembered when they had a band. How things have changed. Everyone’s lives were changing some for the better and some for the worst.
Damon had tried to explain some with what happened with karlie and himself, and apologize to Evie for leaving. He was now beginning to regret leaving his family and his friends down here. He misses them. He misses all of them especially Karlieann. He really didn’t want to hurt her and to be honest he didn’t know why he did what he did besides the fact he didn’t want to hurt her. He didn’t want to hurt her and he did. He did very much so. He didn’t want to start shit at Evie father’s funeral so he would have understood if she didn’t want him there. He did still want to help with anything she would need, but she probably didn’t need anything. Evie started laughing after he tried to explain, and he knew he upset her. He just knew it. Reah had been confused. He didn’t blame her. She is too young to know what was going on. Hell, Damon didn’t even know what he was thinking anymore.
He upset her and he didn’t blame her for being upset. She had started to cry for a moment, he had held out a tissue wheatear she would take it or not was up to her. He wanted to try to explain things to her. He figured he did at least owe her that and he knew he should go try to speak with Karlieann if she would talk to him at all. Everything she was saying to him was true. He knew that more and more as she explained it. He was selfish to just up and leave and he could have trusted them. He just didn’t want to end up killing on of them. He couldn’t bare that if he did. He was struggling big time. He has been staying with Trey, and he lost it and almost killed him one night He thought what he was doing was keeping them safe, but what if by doing so he really wasn’t…
Damon didn’t know anything about Riley, and his families’ abilities, or Evie being a slayer. He didn’t know about Karlie and her cheating death a few times and that she has some sort of abilities’ either. All he was worried about was killing someone he truly loves. He does love Karlie, and for Damon that really is something new… He had killed his father sure it was in self-defense, but it was to protect her. He thought he was protecting her from this and Evie was right he hurt her and them in the worst possible way, damon bit on his lip for a moment before sipping his coffee and looking down at the table. She was right. She was 100% right and was telling the truth. He was sure that she was right too they all probably have something about them that he doesn’t know. Evie really was one of the smartest girl’s he has ever known.
Damon sat there lost in his thoughts, Reah had seemed to have fallen asleep on Evie, she was so adorable. It really would have been neat to have had them as sisters. He knows his mother would have loved to have a little girl around the house if they had gotten married. Damon looked at Evie. “ Your right about everything, I should have trusted you. I should have trusted Karlie and Riley, and I am so sorry I have hurt you all in one of the worst way possible, and I am going to check in more.. I do care. I just didn’t want to hurt you all and I know I did. I was so wrong by doing so. I really do regret what I did and wish I could take it back, but I can’t and that is something I am going to have to live with..”
“I left because I have a problem with dark magic, yes it sounds odd or like I am a loon or something perhaps I am a loon. I don’t know, but I should have trusted all of you with this horrible secret. You are smart and it is possible you could have helped me, but it is possible you couldn’t as well, and you are stronger then me you really are. I am weak and I know that. You would have never left the ones you love no matter what. I just was afraid. I would kill one of you, and I couldn’t bare that…i would dream of doing so...[/color] Damon had said to her in a whisper, hoping she could hear that. Damon knew he was weak it was why these little temptations, impulse working a spell can sometimes push him over the edge and to the dark side and he doesn’t like it. Damon would rather die himself then to kill one of them like he dreapt about. How could he ever be trusted again after what he did to them? How could he ever make it up to them? He is still not well, but he is trying his best to get better. He hates that because of this he has left his friends alone to suffer with problems.
He feels horrible. He really doesn’t deserve any of their forgiveness. He wondered if Karlie would see him. He doesn’t know what he would tell her. He told Evie the truth, and waited to see what she thought about it. He did want to be here more for her and her problems. He does care. He does. He just doesn’t trust himself.. He misses Karlie more and more each day. It is getting harder and hard as each day passes. He tries to pretend that everything is okay, and he just ends up hating himself more and more by what he has done to all of them. Buster reminds him every day of what he is missing. He never ever thought he would fall for a girl this much. He didn’t think if he broke things off with another woman he had dated it would have effected him as much as it does now with Karlieann…
Damon sat there quiet for sometime just watching passerbyers before. He had watched Everton with Reah. He really does hate what happened to them, and he should have been here. He should have. They could have done family type stuff together. He knew there had to be dinner. His mother loved having dinner’s. “ Evie, no matter what happens in the future. Just know I do love you as a friend and I do care, and even if I am not around here. I can’t change the past and what happened, but I do want to know what is going on with you and be a part of your life. If you will have me that is. I want to know about Reah growing up. She has gotten so big since I seen her last. I think it would have been something special and odd if I had the two of you as sisters, and I do mean that. I would have loved it. I know your father made my mum happy. She loves having you girls around the house so please don’t take that away from her. Thank you for having drinks with me.”[/color] He didn’t know if Evie would go see her still after this or be done with her.
If he knew Evie she wouldn’t, but he wanted to be sure. He would check in more too. Drinking his coffee down, he had gazed out the window. It does feel weird being back here. It somehow feels darker, different. He was going to try to talk to Karlie before he leaves back to Chelsea. It might not go well, but he was going to try. He knew he couldn’t pick things off where he left off. It will take some works to get back in his friends lives and especially would take time with the woman he loves. He only did what he did to protect them, and even thought his intensions were good they weren’t the greatest.
Tags: everton and reah brett
Word Count : around blah blah blah according to the pbs count with the tags
Time line/ location : september 2010; camden
Comments: i hope this works for you let me know if anything needs to be changed and what not… we can do a thread or a phone thread maybe of him trying to talk to karlie if you want that is..
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